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Hello fandom!

I'm so sorry I've been so far away the past few weeks. My grandmother has been nearing the end of her life for the past month and I knew my birthday was going to be a hard time.

Nobody in my family (at home) remembered it and that was a bit of a punch to the gut, but then, as I get older, I'm not asking for much more than an acknowledgement. But fandom swooped in and blew me away and my birthday wasn't bad at all.

I received 60 well wishes in the forms of email, tumblr messages, lj pms, virtual gifts, lj posts, facebook posts, facebook IMs, and gifty things. So Thank you for that! Really it means the world to me. The Saturday after my birthday with my mom, grandma, family and uncle was bittersweet. It was a happy birthday/so long grandma party and you can imagine the awkward feels that inspired.

Anyway. I received word from my mother that my grandmother passed at 11:15 this morning after taking her death with dignity prescription and it was wonderful news. And my fandom friend [livejournal.com profile] slr2moons and I were out on our weekly walk when I got the news, so that was nice. I turned to her and said, "you know, I've been grieving for the past 3 weeks and now that it's over, all I feel is relief and thankfulness that she's not suffering and went on her own terms." Cancer is a motherfucking bitch and I feel really blessed that my grandma had the opportunity to take care of her affairs, to say goodbye, and to just let go before it wrecked her with more pain than anyone should have to feel.



Okay... jeez, mab... enough depressing.

Look at the birthday gifts my lovely friends did for me! Thank you all for being so unique and wonderful. The collective creativity and caring in fandom is magical. It's precious. Thank you.


A Haiku

Determination by [livejournal.com profile] digthewriter

A Drarry poem and Art

I'm Drowning by [livejournal.com profile] nobunakira

A Jason/Percy/Luke fic

Percy Jackson Has a Type by jercydrabbles aka yvieisqueer


A Jason/Percy (Jercy) ficlet

Birthday Jercy Treat by Razielim

The beginning of a new Apollo/Zephyrus series

Creepiness has its Benefits by malkuthehighwind

Date: 2015-03-07 10:18 pm (UTC)
writcraft: (Default)
From: [personal profile] writcraft
I've been thinking of you today but haven't wanted to intrude. Love, hugs and I'm just an email away if you want to chat <3

Date: 2015-03-07 11:48 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mab.livejournal.com
Thanks, bb!!

I'm finding distractions through writing. Doing a collab piece just for the hell of it. XD

*hugs*

Date: 2015-03-07 11:17 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] nia_kantorka
I'm sorry about your loss. Even if it was a relief for your grandmother.
*hugs you tight*

But I'm glad fandom gave you a wonderful birthday and showed its love. And it's comprehensible that you were put out with your family. *hugs again*
Edited Date: 2015-03-07 11:17 pm (UTC)

Date: 2015-03-07 11:48 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mab.livejournal.com
Thank you.

*hugs back*

Date: 2015-03-07 11:42 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lq-traintracks.livejournal.com
Wow, Mab, I'm so sorry to hear what you went through with your grandmother. I'm glad you've found that peace now that she has. You're in my heart tonight. <3

Date: 2015-03-07 11:46 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lq-traintracks.livejournal.com
I'm the deleted comment. LJ posted this one twice. Just didn't want you to worry about that!

Date: 2015-03-07 11:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mab.livejournal.com
Thank you very much. It's really a good thing to know she went easily.

Also, funny story... my mom was sure to tell me that grandma chose to go while wearing her favorite pajamas which were a Christmas gift from me several years ago. That was really heartwarming.

Date: 2015-03-07 11:54 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lq-traintracks.livejournal.com
That's wonderful. :-) <3

Date: 2015-03-08 12:13 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] blithelybonny.livejournal.com
A happiest of birthdays to you, my dear. So sorry to hear about your grandma's passing, but I am glad that it seems to have been more peaceful at the end and that her suffering is over.

Many hugs! <3

Date: 2015-03-10 02:03 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mab.livejournal.com
Thanks! *hugs back*

Date: 2015-03-08 01:02 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] winnett.livejournal.com
Oh my, I'm sorry about the hardships going on right now... and that your family spaced. My mother died of cancer, too. It is a bitch. I kinda hate it.

Loves to you. And Happy Birthday.

Date: 2015-03-10 02:04 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mab.livejournal.com
Thanks, bb!

Date: 2015-03-08 01:27 am (UTC)

Date: 2015-03-10 02:04 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mab.livejournal.com
*hugs back*

Date: 2015-03-08 01:47 am (UTC)
alafaye: (Default)
From: [personal profile] alafaye
*hug*

Date: 2015-03-10 02:04 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mab.livejournal.com
*hugs back*

Date: 2015-03-08 04:28 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tripperfunster.livejournal.com
Well, I feel terrible for missing your birthday! In my defence, I barely remember my husband and kid's birthdays but YOU always remember mine.

I"m sorry about your Grandma. Cancer is a fucking asshole. No doubt.

Date: 2015-03-10 02:05 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mab.livejournal.com
lol.. no worries. I think the reason I remember yours is because it's near mine and LJ reminds me. I suck at birthdays the rest of the year.

Yeah.. Cancer is the thing that just needs to fuck off.

Date: 2015-03-08 05:15 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] celestlyn.livejournal.com
I'm so sorry! I know how hard that must be for you. My own mom passed on my birthday a few years ago, so I always think of her on my birthday. It's always a little bittersweet.

((hugs))

Date: 2015-03-10 02:05 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mab.livejournal.com
Thanks, hun. *hugs back*

Date: 2015-03-08 06:36 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] zeitgeistic.livejournal.com
So sad, but I'm so glad she had the option of doing it on her terms.

Date: 2015-03-10 02:07 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mab.livejournal.com
Yeah. I'm really glad she left the way she did too. I worked in long term nursing for 10 years and the end stages of cancer are a hell nobody should have to go through.

Date: 2015-03-08 08:51 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] blossomdreams.livejournal.com
*hugs* I'm so sorry to hear about your grandmother, but I'm glad she was able to find peace and go out the way she wanted to. *more hugs*

Date: 2015-03-10 02:07 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mab.livejournal.com
Thanks. I'm really glad she got to go out the way she did too.

*hugs too*

Date: 2015-03-08 08:58 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] iwao.livejournal.com
I'm so sorry for your loss, Mab. *hugs you tight*

And Happy Belated Birthday. amor. I'm very sorry I missed it! *hugs you tight*

Date: 2015-03-10 02:08 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mab.livejournal.com
*hugs*

Thanks, bb. No worries about missing my b-day. I got uber loved by fandom as it is. :)

Date: 2015-03-08 11:37 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] fantasyfiend09.livejournal.com
Cancer is an evil bitch, but you are wise to see the consultation prize she brings: a chance to say goodbye. I'm sorry you lost your grandmother, but I am glad she isn't suffering. *hugs*

If your birthday didn't gp as you wants, maybe you need to have make-up birthday. It's never too late!

Date: 2015-03-10 02:11 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mab.livejournal.com
Yeah... totally. I am really glad she had the opportunity to settle her affairs and see all the people she needed to before passing. It was a great way to go.

XD I'm not really concerned about my b-day. It was just a wee bit of a not-happy feeling to have my household family not remember on top of being all sad about grandma's last days.

Date: 2015-03-08 12:22 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] capitu
*hugs* I'm sorry for your loss, Mab. I'm glad you found peace though. THinking of you. <33

Date: 2015-03-10 02:12 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mab.livejournal.com
Thanks, bb. I really am doing fine though. If I look back to where I was at five years ago, I don't think I'd have held up under all the sad, so the fact I'm really feeling pretty good cheers me up a ton. Proof that I'm finally out from under the cloud!

*hugs*

Date: 2015-03-08 01:32 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dysonrules.livejournal.com
Awwww, much sympathy and a belated happy birthday to you, darling!

*SQUISHES* <3

Date: 2015-03-10 02:16 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mab.livejournal.com
Thank you! You actually did wish me a happy birthday on time on facebook! So you're one of the lovelies that made my day.

*squishes too*

Date: 2015-03-08 05:08 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] who_la_hoop
A happy belated birthday, my dear. I'm so sorry for your loss. *hugs* ♥

Date: 2015-03-10 02:20 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mab.livejournal.com
Thanks. *hugs too*

Date: 2015-03-08 06:11 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sophie-french.livejournal.com
So, so, sorry to hear about your grandma passing. :(( I can only imagine how hard this must have been/must still be. :((

Lots and lots of hugs. ♥

Date: 2015-03-10 02:21 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mab.livejournal.com
Thanks, bb. *hugs* It was hard, but not really, if that makes sense. More than anything, I'm feeling relieved it's over and my grandma isn't hurting anymore.

Date: 2015-03-09 02:07 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dicta-contrion.livejournal.com
I'm sorry for your loss, but glad that you're finding relief in it as well, and that your grandmother was spared from pain.

Very glad you were surrounded by love and good wishes on your birthday! Hope it's a theme that continues through the year. <3

Date: 2015-03-10 02:22 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mab.livejournal.com
Thanks! I hope so too! I have major fun plans to party with the UK fangirls this summer, so there are rainbows and sunshine in the days ahead!
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Date: 2015-03-10 02:22 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mab.livejournal.com
Thanks so much. I appreciate it. :)

Date: 2015-03-10 04:59 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] saladbats.livejournal.com
I am so glad you had the chance to say goodbye and sit with her decision in the time leading up to the end. And know that there is a huge hug waiting for you from me when I see you next.

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