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Hello f-list!

I'm sorry I've been so distant the past couple of months. I do this every year, but this year I've been feeling especially hermit-like. My time alone is really short lately and as much as I'd love to be around more in fandom, I just can't right now. Life things are looking up, but they're taking a hell of a lot of time and attention to make sure they keep going in a forward direction. I know you all will understand that. XD *hugs all the lovely people* If you're curious as to what's been happening to draw me away so much, I'll give a quick rundown in the spoiler cuts below. If you're not really interested in some areas, and would just like to know what the heck my plans are for future HP fandom participation, skip to the cut: Harry Potter Fandom.



My daughter: She's doing really well since we started in DBT (Dialectical Behavioral Therapy). Most of the kids in her therapy group are going through it because of eating disorders or self-harm, and she's not in that boat at all, so I'm very thankful. I am attending the therapy as part of a parent group, which is really helping me a lot to brush up on the skills I learned (that really got me started out of my darkest days in the mental health system). I like that the teen group isn't allowed to talk in group about why exactly they are there (so they don't feed off each other's maladaptive behaviors, but they do also have individual sessions, so those things are addressed. I get weekly email reports from her advisor at school and since we've started this therapy, she's only had positives to report.

Exercise/Fitness: I've not been doing fantastic with keeping up on this, but as of Tuesday, I'm still heading in the right direction. Since my last measurements I'm down a bit, but not at the pace I had been going. Still, I think it's healthy to slow up every so often, let the body find its normal, then start again with the intense training. I will write up a fitness post for those on my weightloss filter in a little while. Not gonna go into detail here.

Son: My son is going to be 13 in 2 days! OMG! I can't even believe that he'll be a teen. He is my child who has high-functioning autism. I went to his student-led conference last month and then had 2 conferences with the school board about his qualifications for special services. (they do this every few years). I'm so proud of how far he's grown and how much he's improved regarding school performance since we started him at the private school. His private school is tailored for kids with learning differences and most of the kids are somewhere on the spectrum. He's recently decided he wants to wear his hair long-ish. I think it looks great. Considering my husband's hair is down his back, I have no issues with how a person wants to wear their hair. I'm loving mine short, and eventually I plan to shave it all off again, just because I can, and because I love rocking the bald head look. :P (it also grows insanely fast and the bald look never lasts long for me.)

Toddler: The toddler has been a handful lately. He's three and a half and doesn't want to potty train. He's still nursing a couple of times a day, which is fine, I have no problems with going at his pace, but I am looking forward to reclaiming my boobs as MINE. It will happen. This too shall pass. But overall, he's a smart little duck and comes up with the most interesting observations. Last night, after a drawn out refusal to go to sleep in his own bed (which he later changed his mind about) he was lying beside me and pointing at the shadow cast by the ceiling lamp. He said goodnight to me, daddy, the pictures, the window, the door, and the (fish robot) he swears the shadow looks like. XD

Housemate: Our housemate is still with us and I am glad of it. She watches the toddler while I take my daughter to our group sessions on Thursdays. My husband is also home (as he works from home) but it's a real blessing to not have to figure out child care. She was 257 on the waiting list for the women's shelter back in September and has now moved up to the mid-40s, so this too is a good thing. When she gets a spot, they'll be able to help her with getting the services that just aren't freely given in this fucked up world we live in and I'm happy she won't have been on the streets during the winter season of waiting.

Husband: Husband is plugging along, doing his thing. We chat in the evening before bed and catch up on what's what. We're dealing with unexpected expenses from my emergency root canal and an insurance company refusing to cover them, but it could be so much worse, and we're thankful and fortunate to not be in a real hardship.

The hugest time suck of my day to day is driving. I loathe driving. Ever since I was hit by a car at 18, I swore I'd never drive ... and then my mom guilted me into doing it when I was pregnant with my daughter (because you have to be able to drive if you're a mom). Anyway... Now I'm driving nearly 3 hours a day, just taking my kids to school and back.. and on therapy days, it's more like 4.5 hours because of traffic and everything is on opposite sides of town from everything else. Blah. Humbug.




The Harry Big Bang is gearing up! OMG! I'm way excited about this! I am looking forward to submissions coming in and preparing to find every single spare minute I can to start proofreading! It's gonna be awesome!

My goal for podficcing the 300+k fic Turn by [livejournal.com profile] saras_girl all in 2014 is now complete! Turn the Podfic! I've sent the sound file to my lovely hosting person and will have it posted after she gets back to me with the link. I have so many feels about finishing this project. It was a true labor of love. I think the entire thing maxes out at almost 37 hours. It took at least 4 times as many hours to record and edit (and that's being generous with estimating, it was likely more). So, yeah... Whew! *wipes sweat from brow*

And now for some sadder news. I'm going to be using 2015 as a sort of hiatus year from fests. I'm still planning to co-mod [livejournal.com profile] hp_darkarts with [livejournal.com profile] writcraft and the [livejournal.com profile] hp_podfic_fest with [livejournal.com profile] starduchess, but as far as writing goes, my muse is not on HP right now. I do have several HP podfic projects planned for this coming year, but I will likely not be taking on any more until my hiatus ends. I'm also still going to the the [livejournal.com profile] hp_uk_meetup this summer and cannot wait to meet all the fandom friends that will be there. I suspect my HP squee will be back up in full force by then! So this hiatus is really only a break from participating in fests and it will end in 2016 in time for Leviosa the Harry Potter 2016 convention in Las Vegas! I'm so there!

I don't think I'll be in my quiet space for much longer. I really love all of you on my f-list and enjoy keeping up with all your news and chatting, etc... So even though I'm taking a break, I'm not leaving.

And I sent the last of my holiday cards today, so if you haven't got one yet and signed up for one, it's on its way! And my goal of beating last year's number of cards sent was met and more than doubled! So thank you for that! Sending cards is something that makes me so happy!





For those of you who follow me on tumblr at Mab-speaks or Mab-shares will have noticed, I've fallen into a new fandom as far as writing goes. I seem to have an all or nothing muse, and I can't juggle more than one canon and set of characters at a time. I completed my first fic for the Percy Jackson fandom late last month. It's called Shelter and is 71,505 words. I wrote it a chapter a day from mid-October through November and I haven't let go of it yet. I had to end it where I did to free up December and January for the Harry Big Bang, but I have three Shelterverse one-shots planned, the first is posted: Atonement and it pairs the greek god, Apollo with Zephyros, the god of the West Wind. The next will be my first go at a femslash pairing and the last is going to be the main pairing that featured in Shelter. After that, in February, I'm planning to begin the sequel.

I have too many feels and ideas and my head is just brimming to the point I have 3 documents filled with notes, canon/head canons, and partial outlines. I've never felt so freaking prolific in my life and it's just something I can't ignore or stifle. So I'm going with it and will find out where it gets me.

And see the pretty cover art made for me for Shelter... The artist is called St00pz and can be found on tumblr.



Another artist was inspired by the fic too and created this art Nico di Angelo gets a new jacket. And I've had two other people ask permission to fan art from the fic. OMG... so much squee!



All right ... and if you made it through all that, thank you. If you didn't, I don't blame you. Please don't feel guilty. I just want to give you all a heads up as to where I've been, why I'm quiet, and what my plans are. I love you all and I hold the fact true to my heart that Hogwarts will always be home, and I can never stay away forever.

Date: 2014-12-12 10:27 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] citrus-lime.livejournal.com
Congrats on finishing the podfic!! And yeah new fandom can be like that >_>;; but it's so exciting! Would love to join fests again next year but idk :\

Thank you for updating and good luck with everything bb!

Date: 2014-12-12 08:24 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mab.livejournal.com
Thanks,bb!

I think it's totally okay to take the time you need before getting back into fests. So much better to participate when you're all in and have the energy than to force it and feel like crap for not performing your best/ keeping up with everything.

Recuperate strength and feels, then dive back in! P

Date: 2014-12-12 10:38 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lyonessheart.livejournal.com
hey :) I love the Percy Jackson fandom idea I might head over and check it out :) I always felt like Luke/Percy and now I probably will jump in and see what I can do.

And for the meetup I am so excited about that as well!

Date: 2014-12-12 08:30 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mab.livejournal.com
Hehe! I can see where Luke/Percy feels could develop. I a bit too much of a canon shipper to ship Percy with anybody else... But there are so many fantastic characters to play with and possibilities to explore- drawing from and tying in so many mythologies... It's just grabbed me by the eyeballs and won't let go. XD

Let me know if you do end up writing a thing for it, I'll read and support!

So f-ing stoked about the meet up! I can't wait to meet you and the rest and have a good old-fashioned group session of squee!

Date: 2014-12-12 11:24 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mayfly-78.livejournal.com
Its nice to hear that things are getting better. You have such a busy life that what is surprising is that you find time for fandom at all! I have much less on my plate and gave gone sort of AWOL from HP. (Being obsessed with new fandoms is playing a role too.)

Date: 2014-12-12 08:32 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mab.livejournal.com
Lol! I think we all have different amounts of how much time and energy real life sucks from us. Sometimes more than usual.

I got your card the other day and I love it. Thanks so much!

I'll be doing a thankfulness post after the holidays.

Date: 2014-12-12 12:18 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] capitu
Congratulations of Turn, mab. Seeing you do this has been epic.

I'm sorry about your hiatus, of course. Part of me all *clings* But I'm glad you'll still be here. <3

Date: 2014-12-12 08:37 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mab.livejournal.com
Thanks, bb! I could never leave all the way. Hp fandom and friends are too important for me to do that. I've just been seeing a few posts wondering wtf is up with me and thought I should probably just lay it all out.

Re: Turn, I can't even tell you how freaking accomplished I feel having set the goal to podfic Turn in a year, and then met it! Magical feeling!

Date: 2014-12-12 03:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] blithelybonny.livejournal.com
Ah! So good to hear from you and to hear that things are moving in positive strides. <3 That's seriously fantastic news about your daughter and your housemate. And I'm always in favor of young men growing their hair long. I do love a longer-haired gentleman, haha.

I can't believe that HBB is just around the corner. I remember when I initially signed up that 2015 felt like years and years away, but then man did this year just fly by! I'm bummed I had to drop, but still soooooo excited to see what everyone has come up with.

And finally, super stoked for your Percy Jackson-love! I always love it when a new fandom just sort of pops for you. <3 <3

Date: 2014-12-12 08:43 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mab.livejournal.com
Thanks! It really is a nice change of pace to have the time I spend on real life going in an upward direction, rather than just trying to keep my head above water. It's only taken me 36 years to pull it off (presently) (totally not gonna jinx this).

It's absolutely a-ok to need to pull out of a huge challenge if it time's not right, so no guilt feels ( or, if they happen anyway, minimal guilt feels!)

XD I am so excited to see it coming to life after the past year.

Thanks for the vote of confidence with me following my muse in a new direction for a while.

Date: 2014-12-12 04:54 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] anemonen.livejournal.com
Oh, I'm so excited that you've posted the rest of Turn! Can't wait to give it a listen over the holidays :)

Good luck with everything that's going on. Seems like you've got quite a lot going on, I really understand the need to take a step back!

Btw, I got your card yesterday!! Thank you so much <3

Date: 2014-12-12 08:50 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mab.livejournal.com
Yay! I do hope you enjoy listening. It was a really rewarding experience to make it.

Real life will always be a time suck, but I'll come out of hibernation mode more fully soon and won't feel the need to stay so quiet.

I'm so happy the card made it to you! It makes my year to send cards during this time, when I'm sort of disconnected anyway. A bit of a security rope. :)

Date: 2014-12-12 05:11 pm (UTC)
gracerene: (PJ: Percy)
From: [personal profile] gracerene
Sounds like you've been busy!

LOL, since I follow you on tumblr and into Solangelo-land, I feel like I see you around all the time. :D I'm glad your muse seems to be going crazy with this new fandom though, that's always fun.

Oh that cover art is gorgeous!! and Nico with his jacket!

Okay, I think my goal is to read all 5 books of the Heroes of Olympus series before you start posting that second Solangelo fic in February. I want to be able to squee in more specific detail! :D

Date: 2014-12-12 08:53 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mab.livejournal.com
That sounds like a brilliant plan! All these characters will make more sense after you meet them in canon. XD

Also, did you sign up on my holiday card post? I'd love to send you a card. If you'd like one, email me with your info... It would be pjo themed! I do not have enough friends yet to send all the pjo cards I stickers I've been collecting to.

:P

Date: 2014-12-12 07:34 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] firethesound
Congrats on finishing Turn!! :D ::throws confetti::

And while I'm sad that your Muse is leading you away from HP for a while, I understand. Muses need to be followed and if yours is giving you all the words for another set of characters then that's awesome, because words are awesome! And anyhow, I assume you'll still be around LJ and tumblr so it's not like you're really *gone* and anyhow that new-fandom-infatuation is such a wonderful feeling. Embrace it! :D

Date: 2014-12-12 09:37 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mab.livejournal.com
Thanks so much!

Yeah, I couldn't ever really leave hp fandom. It means too much to me, but I'm really feeling right about this muse detour. XD

Date: 2014-12-12 08:43 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dicta-contrion.livejournal.com
Yay you! Yay turn!

Glad to hear that things are looking up, even if not in every area. Good news is a precious thing.

Seeing you turn out Shelter has been amazing, and it seems like people are just loving it! Your muse is clearly on to something! And it's great to see you around here too!

Date: 2014-12-12 09:42 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mab.livejournal.com
Thanks! I hope you enjoy the last chapters of Turn!

It is really a new experience for me, writing every day and having overwhelming positive feedback. It's funny... I got flamed last night on my first shelterverse one-shot, but with the boosted morale, it's so much easier to just let it slide off.

Date: 2014-12-12 09:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] groolover.livejournal.com
My card from you arrived this week. Thank you so much! And I posted your calendar (and card) yesterday - can't wait to see what you think of it when it arrives :-)

Date: 2014-12-12 09:43 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mab.livejournal.com
Omg! I'm so looking forward to seeing your card and this calendar! I will definitely let you know what I think when it gets here! *squishes you*

Date: 2014-12-12 09:47 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] groolover.livejournal.com
The amusing part is that while I was in the post office I saw a calendar that I didn't realise existed, and I had to buy it, and I already had a list longer than last year's BEFORE that :-)

Date: 2014-12-26 08:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mab.livejournal.com
I got the calendar. I think I sent you an email about it, but I could be misremembering thinking about writing it as actually having done it.

It's so fluffing brilliant! I have it hanging in a place of honor in my house. The dining room, right beside the door to the kitchen, so I will see it everyday and maybe even use it to help myself keep my days straight. XD

Thanks a million. I really love it!

Date: 2014-12-12 10:19 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] nia_kantorka
Aww, Mab, I've started to listen to chapter 13/1 of Turn some minutes ago and am so happy about it. :D

Great to hear that your daughter is doing fine and your soon-to-be-a-teen-son as well. Oh well, toddlers. Aren't they all quite a handful? We had our annual check with our 4y old daugther this week and the doc said exactly the same about her (and she only met her for 30 minutes).

The Shelter cover looks fantastic. It's be bit sad though that we didn't get a glimpse of Will's pants collection. Now I'm wondering if he wears blue, red or yellow briefs. LOL
And the second pic. Awww, Nico's eyes and chin. Yummy. Very yummy.
I read Atonement again and loved these two the second time. Need to go back and leave a proper comment, but I'm struggling to keep up with things, especially fandom related.

If we'll meet next year in London, it would be such a blast! :D

One last thing. I've got a question about my pay-if-forward to you. Would you like a Percy related gift? Or a HP one? If a HP one, which house would you choose? I would guess it's Slytherin but that might be your background speaking to me here, so I'm asking.

Date: 2014-12-12 11:10 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mab.livejournal.com
It would be brilliant to meet you in London. Are you planning to attend the meet up?

As far as the pay-it-forward, I'm alright with whatever you'd like doing. The pairings I love in pjo are Solangelo, Apollo/Zephyros, and Reyna/Rachel. In hp I do love Slytherin house, but the others are nice too. I prefer Harry/Draco if you want to do a pairing, but I'll really love anything you choose. :)
Edited Date: 2014-12-12 11:11 pm (UTC)

Date: 2014-12-12 11:30 pm (UTC)
nia_kantorka: (Default)
From: [personal profile] nia_kantorka
Yes, I'm planning to attend the meet up and to visit a non-fandom friend of mine (I haven't seen for years) as well. :D

Nope, it's about a handycrafted thingy and its colours. But if you don't mind, I stop talking and am going to surprise you. ;p

Date: 2014-12-16 03:45 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] zeitgeistic.livejournal.com
I agree with the thought of letting your body find a new normal before starting up again. Better than overwhelming it, for sure!

I'm really interested in your housemate. Did you volunteer to host or was it someone you knew? I wouldn't mind lending my futon to a woman in need every now and then.

Date: 2014-12-16 04:57 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mab.livejournal.com
I met my housemate during the two weeks in late August/early September when I was not sleeping and writing my HBB. I spent every second of spare time I had at a 24 hour coffee shop and would frequently get into conversations with random people when I took breaks. She had just come out of a controlling relationship and found herself homeless at age 60 and the best advice the shelter had to offer (while she waited for a spot) was to stay up all night in 24 hour coffee shops to stay warm and sleep while riding the MAX (our lightrail system)... problem with that is that you can't look for work when you have to sleep during daylight hours. We chatted over the course of about 9 days and I brought her home with me a couple of those days just to give her a place to shower and sleep in a bed so she wouldn't keel over from exhaustion.

Then I talked to my husband (I have a history of taking in homeless people for the winter) and he agreed that as she isn't strung out/dangerous and we both got to know her, that it was the least we could do to house her until she is able to get in at the shelter. So that's how it went. I knew I liked her from the first time I met her and she overheard my conversation with a random stranger about how "fuck" is the best word in the english language. :P

Date: 2014-12-16 04:49 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] slr2moons.livejournal.com
It sounds like things are going pretty good for you, IRL and fandom both. C: I'm so happy for you! *hugs* It was great seeing you so often at the write-ins, too. ^^V

I can't believe Turn is done. I don't want the lovely adventure to end!! Thanks so much for making this podfic, it's been a joy to listen to. And as my first podfic, it's set the bar high!

Now that I've kicked my head cold and adjusted to the cooler weather, I'm back to jogging and walking almost every day! Think we can meet up for some companionable exercise? It's my turn to drive to you! Do please LMK. *crosses fingers for good luck*

Date: 2014-12-16 05:00 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mab.livejournal.com
IKR? Luckily Turn has a prequel and two one-shots, and I have permission to podfic them. It was so much easier to end the podfic knowing that. XD

Definitely let's get together for some walking. I've been so busy I'm only making it to the gym once a week and that is not nearly enough. Text me soon and we'll plan a time. Maybe a regular weekly walking date?

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